O.K. O.K.

O.K. I typed something so R&R can quit bugging me! (Ryan&Russell).
I cant help it if I never get out of the house and dont have anything to Blog about.
Tomorrows post.... A day with Ginger...My Puppy!
Love Ya.

We Are Back (For Good)

Hey everyone, Did you miss us? I know you did. We sure missed all of you! As everyone knows this has been A hard month for my family and myself. So much has happened the last month, it seems like I don't know if I am coming or going most of the time. I of course have mixed feelings about coming back to Michigan, Don't get me wrong I am glad to be back,but all,and all,I miss home. Mostly all the mountains and of course all of my family. I also realized that I have A wonderful family here. So, in time I will be fine. Jay and I have decided that it may be best for me to wait till the first of the year to go back to work. That way I can just relax. I don't even know how to relax. It will give me time to rest and get through the Holiday's. Right now I don't know what the best thing for me to do is. Part of me wants to go back to work right now,and part of me doesn't. I don't even have A job to go back to, plus Adam, will be out of school for Christmas break soon and we don't have anyone to watch him over the break. So, I guess I will just stay home. Adam, also likes it when I am home when he comes in from school. So, has everyone gotten there Christmas tree up yet? We haven't. I hope to get it up this weekend. Ever since I have gotten home I have been cleaning. I still have A few more little things to clean before I am ready to put the tree up. I guess I'll go for now. It is really nice to be back home with you all. Love ya!!!

Back to work

I finally, get to go to work today. I wont know how to act. I haven't been to work in since last Wednesday. At least I am well rested. I just pray for God to help me through the next 3 days. I know he will. I have a question. Was it Samson who lost the battle because of his long beautiful hair? Sometimes I get confused. I am learning more and more everyday that I read. I know he cut his hair and lost all his power and the Philistines gouged out his eyes and took him down to Gaza,but in the end he won ,because Samson prayed to the Lord Judges 16:28-30 He said "O sovereign Lord,remember me. O God, please straighten me just once more, and let me with one blow get revenge on the Philistines for my two eyes. Then Samson reached out to the two pillars central pillars bracing himself against them, his right hand on one his left hand on the other,Samson said let me die with the Philistines! Then he pushed with all his might and down came the temple on the ruler and the people in it. Samson killed many more when he died than when he lived . So, that makes me think it was Samson,I could be wrong am I ? If I am what is the right answer? Or better yet don't tell me just give me a hint where I can find the right answer myself. My Aunt called me last night to check on me about my smoking,and ask me the question? She said it is in the Old Testament. I read, and, read that is what I came up with. So someone, Please! Help guide me in the right direction where I can find the answer if I am wrong. Love Ya!!!

Well I was right.

Today I went to my work to get my new hours for next week. Now I'm down to 3 days. I need a new job so bad. I guess I better be thankful that I have a job. Its kind of hard to go somewhere that you don't really want to go,but you have to. Do you know what I mean? I am going to keep looking for a new job. Until I find one I will stay at this one. That is the smart thing to do. At least I bring in a little money,and I am going to have to drop my Health Ins. For my check to be a little bigger. What to do,What to do? It seems like everyone is kinda haveing hard times right now. We just need to keep eachother in prayer. I pray for all of you all the time. In time everything will work out for the best. As for my smoking, I am doing better at the quitting thing right now. I can't quit cold turkey. I found that out today,but I have cut down a lot. It is just going to take me some time. I will get through this one way or another. I have the will I just need a little more of the power. I will get it. That is what I keep telling myself.I do have faith that I will make it through this.LOVE YA!!!

Had enough!!!

Well, I went to Country Market today to turn in my application. The Store director told me that he would look it over . So, then I went to Tim Hortons to get a application there. I just picked it up so that Jay could get home and get to bed . He had been up all night working at his new job. Then when I got home he went to bed, I was supposed to go to work at that place that I work at but don't like and have to make myself go there. Today, after the way I was treated yesterday I just couldn't make myself go anymore. I called in. I just don't understand why, Some people are the way they are. {For example} Yesterday, I told Dayna the Deli Manager that I couldn't be at work till 7:30 a.m. on Mondays anymore because of Jays new job. We have Adam, I'm not leaving him home alone. Danya, said go home and talk to Jay and give me a call. So I did. I talked to Jay there is noway I can be at work until 7:30a.m. Then I called her and told her and she got very nasty and said Thanks a lot Christina you really put me in a bad position and hung up on me. Then also that afternoon at work my Meat Manager wouldn't even acconolge I was even there sitting at the picnic table with him. I was talking to him but he wasn't answering. I don't get it . I cant take working there anymore! They treat there employees like Doo Doo! And, I'm not Doo Doo! So, I am looking for another job.LOVE YA!!! There is more to this but I would be here typing all day!

Sorry I have failed!!!

Well, I had my first smoke today,then a while later I had another and so on and so forth. I have failed. I have let Satin in once again. It's all my fault to, not my husbands, I made it 5 day's without one. Please don't blame my Husband for my not quitting. This is my own battle. It is up to me and only me. I have to try that much harder. The thing is I don't know what it is going to take. Is it going to take myself getting cancer or my Husband getting cancer. I really don't know how to kick this nasty habit. That is what it is to a NASTY HABIT!!! I feel so bad because I know everyone has been praying over me about this. I thank you for trying. I guess Satin has got his one thing with me. I need to get it in my head that I will make it without a smoke. I have for five day's you would think that the hard part would be over. I feel so ashamed of myself for letting every one down, but most of all for letting Satin have his way with me. I need to trust in God for me to make it. It is just so hard to quit don't know what to say. I have no excuses. Sorry for letting everyone down. Love YA !!!

Hangin on!

Hello everyone it's me the one who stays up all night,and all day. I just can't rest for nothing. This not smoking thing is an awesome thing but the withdraw is for the birds. I haven't had a good night sleep in I couldn't even tell you. I don't remember myself. I just take little cat naps here and there. I WILL NOT GIVE UP AND SMOKE!!! I will not let myself fail now. I also want to say Thanks again for all the support everyone has shown me. I Love you all very much. I am sitting here at 2:16 a.m. eating a strawberry poptart {yum YUM} It is so good. I don't know what I will eat next. I need to find something to do with my hands. LOVE YA!